April 15th, 2010

SHINee >> Jonghyun >> Key >> Jongkey

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I just can't be bothered with anything.
I feel a bit... a bit lifeless.
Not much is fun anymore. I feel like I can't be bothered to draw, and what am I even getting out of it? I barely have time to do what I want anymore anyway what with the amount of work I have to do for college.
Plus money seems to be avoiding me when I need it most. Brilliant. I know money isn't everything, but it helps you get places. And I don't want to stay here. It's so damn... boring! And repetitive. I know what to expect day to day, there's a routine and I hate routines! I want to travel the world, meet new people, try new foods and ways of life and experience something amazing everyday.
I don't think the people around me are helping. Everyone's getting old, or ill, or just dying and making everyone depressed and I don't want people to be depressed, because it's bloody depressing. I want to be happy. Always upbeat. And usually I can always be optimistic, but lately it's getting really hard to be that way.
I'm sorry if anyone actually read this, you don't want to hear all this crap. Or read all this crap. I know I don't.